Hey everyone...

So I've decided to leave LiveJournal, since I don't like the ideas of "Live" Journals.  I am now keeping a blog at blogspot.  You can visit it at http://nerezzaconvoca.blogspot.com and comment and stuff.  There is also a second blog I'm writing that's actually a story of my life from senior year high school to senior year college.  It should prove to be fun and enlightening.  It's at http://crstpierre.blogspot.com I hope you enjoy!

Current Location: SGS
How I'm Feelin': tired
My00zik: Damien Rice

So for those of you on the Oscuro Destiny syndication, I apologize for the...16 posts I believe.  That's me forgetting to remove the old ones.

I would like to start this entry by pointing out that I just watched a car attempt to parallel park outside my window. While doing so, he shredded both tires on the passenger side by pulling back against the curb. That only made my mood better :P

Aaaaanyway, how am I doing? GREAT! There are some amazingly stupid things going on right now...but I am pretty much feeling...fine! Let's go piece by piece. For those of you that know me and my problems, this will be good news. For those of you that don't, consider it a learning experience :P

ON WPI
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference."
The registrar can kiss my ass, that's all I have to say. Who has an accounting schedule that runs on a semester system when the academic calendar runs on a quarter system? Oh well, qué será será. Otherwise, I'm very happy with my career changes thus far. I've had nothing but a good experience in the MGE and IMGD programs (far more than the CS program). I've made good impressions on many people, probably not so good on some (not that they matter) and it has really been an eye opening expereince.

ON SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER
"The superior man is modest in his speech, but exceeds in his actions."
Not guna lie, this has been a huge burden. It's very difficult to be a people person when you can't talk to people! But...I've gone to great lengths to fix it and most recently, I'd have to say I am feeling muCh better about it. Tours, presentations, being more outgoing...even the MBTI says I'm extroverted! But that's not the point...heh. This past summer has been one of the best summers of my life. Although I still don't LIKE public speaking, I've come VERY far. Running meetings, making announcements, giving tours. You'd all be proud :P

ON PARANOID PERSONALITY DISORDER
"A friend is one before whom I may think aloud."
Probably the hardest thing to deal with of all of my problems.  You can't possibly understand how hard it is to talk to someone and think everything they say is angry.  And I mean everything.  It completely throws off your ability to perceive who is a friend and who isn't.  Made me sick, worried, anxious, etc.  Over the past couple of months, with the help of a couple of my closer friends, I think I've beaten this as well.  I don't think someone is mad at me anymore, especially my good friends, and most of all, what people think of me is less of an issue now.  If you don't like me, tough shit.  Better philosophy than my previous one. Haha.  But seriously, no more worrying, no more wondering if it's "ok" to talk to someone or if they're going to be mad.

ON CHRONIC DEPRESSION
"Prove all things; hold fast that which is good."
I think I've already gone over this at length before, but I'll just reaffirm that it is no longer a problem.  If the past few weeks hasn't been a good indication, I don't know what is.

ON PERSONAL LIFE
"The best relationship is the one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other."
I'm sure the girl for me is out there, I just need the exact correct number of no's before I get my yes. :P  PS - If you have a crush on me, let me know, I'll be happy to schedule an interview :P

ON FRIENDS
"A friend is one with whom I may speak aloud."
All of the suff above?  Ya, not possible without the exceedingly good help of friends.  They're the ones who not only are honest with me, but listen to what I have to say, and actually continue to be my friends.  Amazing isn't it?  A lot of my friends are very cose to me, and that's more than I could even ask for.  I am pretty much.....well I guess cured is the word.  No more crap, no more stupid head stuff, no more anything.  I am a me I've never been before...a better me. 

I now recognize the people that matter, and those that don't.  I recognize those that have been pretended to be my friends and then completely threw out my trust.  I recognize those that pretend to be my friends just because they feel the need.  I no longer have tolerance for those that judge me based on what kind of person they THINK I am, and not based on what they know.  I'm sick of people claiming they know me, then starting rumors about me contrary to the truth.  You have something to ask me?  Not sure about me?  Ask.  Because I'm a better person now, and if you're one of those people, most likely a better person than you are.  Think what you want, I am who I am...I know who I am, and you probably don't.

Thank you for everything you've done if you're actually my friend.  Otherwise, stop living the lie.

Chris "I Feel better than I ever have....ever" St. Pierre

PS - All together, this entry has been open, written, edited and finally posted over the course of 5 hours.  I hope you liked it :P

Current Location: 7 Goulding Street
How I'm Feelin': refreshed
My00zik: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - In Fate's Hands

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My00zik: She-Green Day

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How I'm Feelin': stressed
My00zik: Circle of Life

There's 178 movies on this list. Copy/paste this into your lj and number the ones you've seen. If you've seen more than 70, then you have no life.

(1) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(2) Grease
(3) Pirates of the Caribbean
(4) Boondock Saints
(5) The Mexican
(6) Fight Club
(7) Starsky and Hutch
(8) Blazing Saddles
(9) Airplane
(10) The Princess Bride
(11) Young Frankenstien
(12) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(13) Napoleon Dynamite
(14) Saw
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
(15) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason X
(16) Scream
(17) Scream 2
(18) Scream 3
(19) Scary Movie
(20) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(21) American Pie
(22) American Pie 2
(23) American Wedding
(24) Harry Potter
(25) Harry Potter 2
(26) Harry Potter 3
(27) Harry Potter 4
(28) Resident Evil I
(29) Resident Evil II
(30) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(31) The Village
(32) Donnie Darko
(33)Lilo & Stitch
( ) Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch
(34) Finding Nemo
(35) Finding Neverland
( ) 13 Ghosts
( ) Signs
(36) The Grinch (Jim Carrey)
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (The Original)
(37) White Chicks
(38) Butterfly Effect....and it's wicked good >:(
( ) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
(39) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(40) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
(41) Deep Impact
(42) King Pin
( ) Never Been Kissed
(43) Meet The Parents
(44) Meet the Fockers
( )Eight Crazy Nights
(45) Joe Dirt
( ) A Cinderella Story
(46) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(47) Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
(48) Final Destination
(49) Final Destination 2
(50) Halloween
(51) The Ring
( )The Ring 2
(52) Harold & Kumar Get the Munchies (H&K go to white castle)
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(53) Hellboy
(54) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(55) The Whole Nine Yards
(56) The Day After Tomorrow
(57) Child's Play
(58) Bride of Chucky
(59) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(60) Nightmare on Elm Street
(61) Sixteen Candles
(62)Remember the Titans
( )Coach Carter
( ) Bad Boys
( )Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
(63) Se7en
(64) Oceans Eleven
(65) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(66) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(67) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(68) Mars Attacks
(69) Event Horizon
( )Ever After
(70) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(71) X-Men
(72) X2
(73) Spider-Man
(74) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday (original)
( ) Reign of Fire
(75) Cruel Intentions
(76) The Hot Chick
( )Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
( ) The Notebook
(77) K-Pax
(78) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(79) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(80) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
(81) Hitch
(82) The Fifth Element
(83) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(84) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(85) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(86) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(87) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(88) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
(89) Air Force One
(90) For Richer or Poorer
(91) Trainspotting
( ) People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(92) Sound of Music
(93) Parent Trap
( ) Parent Trap Re-make (Lindsay Lohan)
( ) The Burbs
(94) The Terminator
(95) Terminator 2
(96) T-3
( ) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
( ) Meet Joe Black
(97) Nightmare Before Christmas
(98) The Silence of the Lambs
( ) Red Dragon
(99) Sleepy Hollow
( ) I Heart Huckabees
( ) 24 Hour Party People
( ) Blood In Blood Out
(100) Neverending Story
( ) Bedazzled

How I'm Feelin': in the middle
My00zik: Thornbird

Best. Holiday. Gift. Ever.

<3 Caitlin

How I'm Feelin': chipper
My00zik: Path of Repentance

So, I do this every year, to the discontent of those who hate long posts everywhere, but I feel that it's very necessary. This is what I'm thankful for...but first an introduction:

The past couple of weeks have been a couple of the worst weeks of my life (I personally believe). I've dealt with many things before, but never so many coming at me all at once. Personal, to Family, to Academic, to Work...it all hit me at once, and frankly is still going on. I've been depressed before, and it's somewhere that I don't ever want to be again. And even still, I found myself headed there once again. Let's recap...

-My grandmother is back in the hospital
-My friend in Iraq is injured (this is a new one)
-I had to forfeit my BS/MS credit for Graphics
-I'm behind quite literally by days on my graphics and on my Art
-I'm behind a week or so on my MQP

All of this put together, makes me a very sad panda. Why am I thankful then, you ask? Well, there are very specific people, as well as groups of people... Let's start with groups. Remember there is absolutely no reason to think you're not helping if I don't point you out.

Trowbridge Peepz:
Been with me since the beginning, and I always know I can go to you for nothing more than a good time or a laugh or something better than what's actually going on in my life.

SocComm Peepz:
Every experience I've had thus far with SocComm has been a good one, and the people I've met have been absolutely phenomenal. Thank you for everything.


Now to the individual people, in no particular order, except for the last couple who stick out in my mind the most only because of their support in the last couple of really bad weeks. Note that Ari is not in this. That's because she's been supportive for obvious reasons :P

Andrew: It's been a blast working on the MQP so far, and the fact that you've been so understanding about my situation, inabaility to work, etc., makes me very appreciative of all your support. You're a great friend and an awesome MQP partner. Rock on.

Shaun: So, this one is funny, because you've been great over the past term like you were when we were roommates. You've kept the roommate demeanor, and that's awesome, I really appreciate it, even though we realy hate each other deep down :P

Loopy Lopez: Hey man, even though we've both been doing pretty crappy (at least you a couple times :P) you've been doing a great job with keeping up with the work you need to do, as well as just hanging out and being awesome. I couldn't ask for anything more.


And on the top of the list at the moment:
Caitlin: You may think you haven't done anything, but good friends from the beginning don't need to :P Just being there is absolutely wonderful. Thanks for existing. hehe

Alew: Oh you know why already! Thanks for being awesome, and being such a good friend. I met you not to long ago officially, but we're so awesome, we were bound to be good friends! Thanks for everything, and I'm sure we'll be talking soon :)

Bisol: Someone that I can always go to, at least when I think of it :P You're a great friend as well, and hanging out with you, even if I make fun ;) is always a pleasure. NACA was awesome with you along, even with you're very focused agenda. hehe.

Dave: Dave, by you being me, it's pretty obvious as to why you're awesome. No need to explain...just keep being the good friend you are ;) I've been me longer than i've been you, after all.

Basilio: To spare me the novel writing, I'll just say thanks for everything. You had to deal with me before NACA, pretending to be happy, but ranting to you...you had to deal with me at NACA, feeling even worse, and you've had to deal with me after NACA, feeling COMPLETELY horrible, and looking for someone to cling to.


And that, ladies and gentleman, is what I am thankful for. The people, the places...mostly the people :P I thank you for everything, and hope that you will continue to take my annoyance as I finish this horrible HORRIBLE term.

-Chris

Tags: friends
How I'm Feelin': better...
My00zik: NFL Game - Dallas v Denver

Insomnia solely based on thinking. I know she's doing better, but I think the absolute worst question you can ask when you want to sleep is what if...

SUCH A STUPID PHRASE! WHO CAME UP WITH IT?

I don't want to be without someone like Mem right now, not yet. There are plenty of family members I've lost (I say plenty, but not many. I'm not very familiar with family death), but this would drastically affect an entire term. But of course it's not going to happen. It can't because I told her at Maegan's wedding that I'd spend more time with her at Thanksgiving and Christmas sicne I haven't been around in a while. So, there we go perfect!

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How I'm Feelin': :(
My00zik: Jesus of Suburbia - Green Day

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How I'm Feelin': tired
My00zik: Fans in the background...